Mood:Beautiful
Song of Choice: “Real Me” by Ayumi Hamasaki
Topic: I’m not certain

I got an e-mail from someone very very very gifted in their use of words…I would like to thank them…and tell then how much I love them. I also would like to post their e-mail but I’m certain that he would be embarrassed and its best to just outline the email.

He wrote me in regard to the last update. Shorting his e-mail really cheapens it but I’m going to have to. He stated that he doubted that Melanie was truly beautiful…that she was simply hot. Then he went on to explain that hot is simply a physical attraction that males feel for a female for just the physical and that in many ways the word hot is negative. But beautiful on the other hand also means a beauty of the heart and spirit.

He continued to say that I in my own respect was of status and popular but I just didn’t look at it the right way. That I was popular with my friends that I was important and recognized to them and thus I was popular and that everyone else really didn’t matter because money running I don’t like them either lol.

My friend also continued to say that he wanted to defend me from all this confusion and the terrors of life but he regrettably couldn’t but he knew I was strong.

He said many other things…but that is not for the masses lol so I just wanted to let everyone know that I got my head on straight again I just had delirium of grandeur you know but I’m back now. Hmmm lol I hope that the boy that sent me that e-mail calls me later this evening because I think I have a lot to say to him.

So yes…um lol hey guys thanks for liking me the way I am lol I didn’t realize how many people cared until the e-mail and then when I tried to put all the mail and notes that I got this year in chronological order…I have like a note for everyday from just Jonnell and sometimes two…lol it’s so wild but…thanks guys for liking me the way I am.

^-^
Kim
Real Me
What I get?
What you get?
It may be an illusion
And we may only want to believe
That we have got
What I say?
What you say?
If we don't express
Our thoughts and feelings in words
They may not be understood nor reach
The present time
Starts here
A woman never runs away
A woman never hides away
In order to survive
You should not want to be healed
Without fighting
A woman never shows her fears
A woman never shows her tears
In order to survive
You should not easily
Show your tears to someone
What I need?
What you need?
Maybe it's all right
So long as I have desires
And am not satisfied
What I lose?
What you lose?
Maybe I have heard enough people saying
That they knew the value of something
Only after losing it
Love
It's here
A woman could be dangerous
A woman could be generous
In order to survive
We cannot always be
So good girls
A woman could be having fun
A woman could be like a nun
In order to survive
We cannot be kind to others
Before we know pain
A woman never runs away
A woman never hides away
In order to survive
You should not want to be healed
Without fighting
A woman never shows her fears
A woman never shows her tears
In order to survive
You should not easily
Show your tears to someone
A woman could be dangerous
A woman could be generous
In order to survive
We cannot always be
So good girls
A woman could be having fun
A woman could be like a nun
In order to survive
As I know
You see the real me